I've been feeling so blah lately that blogging just wasn't in the least bit appealing. Life is going on as usual and the sun of course doesn't show its face as much as I would want it to. I get depressed easily in the winter thought this winter has been the worst by far in terms of these yucky feelings.
Does anyone out there go through that as well? This year has been worse. I start getting anxious and can't relax and I am driving my family mad. I feel horrible, worthless and also there is guilt related to so many things that I think I may explode some days. I wonder what in the world is so wrong with me since there is nothing that bad in my life to make me feel this way. Why can't I really enjoy life and my beautiful family? And back to guilty I feel and on and on I go that I was debating going to get medicated. I still might if I don't feel better by this summer.
But today was a good day and the whole weekend was good for that matter. So I will bask in the good things.
My spirits are up after going on a hike. A simple and free thing (except the gas to get there but the hike was close by) did wonders for me. Maybe I need to get off my butt and go out even in the rain.
Saturday I got to babysit my sweet nephew and niece and I had a lot of fun seeing my kids so happy as well. They got along so well. Dacian plays really well with Lily and Lavinia tried to tag along the whole time.
Zeke just wanted Lavi's attention but she got a little testy at times thinking he's there to get her toys. Silly girl.
Zeke poking Lavi. :) So funny.
Today on Memorial day my parents and the four of us went on a hike. We went to Cold Creek Park that is a huge forest full of many short and longer, easy and moderate hikes that are only 15 minutes away from our house. The forest was alive, the paths were well kept. We saw squirrels, Dacian brought home some snails and the trip was super fun. We barbecued at the beginning of the hike because we were hungry. My awesome parents brought some yummy chicken and steak wrapped in bacon plus roasted mushrooms and little bell peppers. Delish!
The kids had so much fun running around. We had the backpack for Lavi and Dacian walked the whole time without a single complaint. We even got son later on in the day for a nice treat.
At the end of the hike close to the parking lot there was a log going over the river that was really low and I made it OK going over the river but not coming back. I was trying to hand over Lavi to Shane when I slipped and fell and got wet from my belly down. I was laughing along with everyone else.
Driving back we saw a cool house all the way up a big hill and Taylor our friend who came with us said that is a golf course and that the view up there is stunning. We went up there and I especially enjoyed the beautifully trimmed grass that was oh so soft on my bare feet.
The views were just spectacular. You could see Seattle, Puget Sound and Bellevue to Kirkland all at once. I think that might be the place to be on 4th of July and see everyone's fireworks.
How lovely are forests? I have to give some credit to the rain for this. Haha!
Look at those little ferns growing right up on that tree!
Cool tree!
This picture of me holding L was right before falling in the water. I could've just gotten my shoes wet but I pretty much slipped and fell flat on my belly. Such a Maddy thing to do.
My dad's camera is cool and does an easy peasy panoramic. All pics are taken with is point and shoot.
All in all I think being outdoors with my family is one of my favorite things in the world.
School will be out in a few more weeks and I can't wait until the end of June so I can get some time off from work.
