Sad

On Monday I got terrible news that a friend, this lady I used to work with died in a car accident along with her husband and another couple who was in the car.
I just can't get it out of my head that she is gone. Sadly they were killed because of a drunk driver. Of course the driver walked away only with minor scratches. Four innocent people died because a young kid went behind the wheel after 8 drinks. He even walked away from the scene after the accident but apparently someone saw what happened and convinced him to go back. How is it that so often the bad guys survive and good people die?
Hilda was just such a fun woman, always full of life, very giving. We went to lunch many times. She threw a party for me when I changed jobs. She gave Dacian this monkey that he sleeps with. I always thought of her when I saw this toy and now I will always think of her when I will see it.
She also made the best salsa. She loved her family and her cute granddaughters. I feel so sad for them. Their kids lost both parents just like that. I didn't need this reminder again that life is so fragile. It was also a reminder of how we suddenly lost my father in law two years ago. Incidents like this left me a little scarred if you may; I think of death a lot. Or more likely I fear death a lot or fear my family being taking away from me. I can only pray that won't happen of course but I also try to enjoy those dear to me in the here and now.
May she rest in peace and I pray for her family in this hard time in their lives.

Lavinia is 1! Happy Birthday!

My sweet little baby,Lavinia Ariel Sanders aka Stinky, Chewbacca, Lav, Lavi is 1 today.

I tried to post important pictures from every month of her life. We celebrated her every month with a cake. For some reason I can't find the number 8 cake. Number 7 is in my parents' pics so I have to get those and I hope they have number 8 as well.

Lavinia has been an excellent baby pretty much from the get go. She wasn't very fussy as a newborn, slept a lot, never spit up which (I thought was weird) and was very easy going. Around 3 months she started being chatty. At that point she was sleeping thru the night. She slept like that until she outgrew her bassinet and we brought her in bed with us. After that she started waking up to nurse more. Fine with me. I mean I wished I could sleep like before but it wasn't such an annoyance. We cuddled and that was fun. When my parents moved out in July their room became hers. I got it all painted and girly and moved the crib in there. From the first night I put her in there (7mo) she slept through the night. I was amazed as I was prepared for some major drama but thankfully I didn't have to worry about her. She took and still takes naps in her car seat. She loves that thing for naps and is still so little that I think she will be in there until 2.

She crawled really early; earlier than Dacian at 5 1/2 months and was walking right on her 10th month. She is not as easy going now as she has a velociraptor (sp) scream. Both my kids I guess are screamers. I don't know what to do but I know it gets better as they start talking.

She can by theway say quite a few words and knows the sounds of many, many animals if you ask her. Her favorite is the lion. She has the cutest roar.

She is normal for height (40%) but underweight (no longer on the charts) . She has never been a good nurser. She ate in a whopping 5 minutes and then was done. I tried to force more down her throat but she let me know in no uncertain terms she was done.

We are very happy to have her in our lives. Dacian loves her to pieces even though he gets upset when she so carelessly bulldozes over his toys.

We love you baby and wish that you will grow strong, faithful, nice, happy and healthy. May the Lord protect you and care for you always.

Love, Mom and Dad

P.S Her b-day party will follow next weekend so I will post more pictures of our fun.

at the pumpkin patch

11 months ( I love this sweater given by the bishop's wife at her shower)

First food (rice cereal-4 mo.)
One of my family's favorite cakes-seriously delicious)

3 months
2 months

The doll might even be bigger than her
Blessing day
One month
Sweet siblings. Dacian seems pleased as punch and look at how attentively Lavinia is looking at her brother.

An attempt at cool pictures. I wish I took these pics at a few days old not 3 weeks old. I really wanted to get the cool sleeping newborn look but she insisted on being awake for the photo shoot. I tried... The only time in her life she was chubby. She was born at 8lbs.

Happy Birthday to ME!

Yesterday was my big day, my leave your twenties behind day. Hmm... I don't feel any different than before of course. If I am to reflect on my twenties I would say a lot was acomplised. I have a wonderful husband, two cute kids, a house, we are healthy, I like my job even though I would prefer to stay home with my children. I hope my thirties will bring health and hapiness and that we will be able to go over any trial that may come our way. Trials we had plenty but if anything they made us stronger.

Shane was such a sweetie and decided to spoil me rotten yesterday. He got me a laptop notebook that I had wished for a long time ago. I am so excited to be able to do all my chats, FB, blogs, look up recipes right in my kitchen. ( no more printing stuff)

Aside from this fabulous computer he made the best fondue dinner. My parents were invited and we had a great time together. We had been rather sick so I stayed home from church and tried to get better. Lavinia had thrown up the night before, Dacian was also sick so we kept the celebration to close family only. We started with cheese fondue, then meat fondue in coq au vin and then chocolate fondue. The other surprise was this fabulous cake from Hoffman's, a great neighborhood bakery. They surely make the best of cakes. Shane took Dacian there to choose a cake and Dacian chose this martizpan cake called the Princess cake. I guess he chose their best selling cake. Doesn't it look pretty? On top of being pretty it is hard to describe how delicious it was. Dacian was so sweet. He sang Happy Birthday to me all day. He had us all wear these birthday hats leftover from his b-day party. He insisted we all put them on and he called them the Pricess Hats even though they looked nothing like a princesy hat. I guess he got into the whole princess thing because of the cake and mommy. It was sweet!
I had the best birthday and I really have to thank Shane for it. He made it really special for me. Thank you honey!

Just today I got the cutest gift from one of my best friends. It is beautiful and I thank you for it Holly. I can't wait to post pictures. Mission accomplished. :)

Also I got a call from my uncle from France and from my brother and other friends and family members, cards, calls, FB wishes, a fabulous sweater from my parents.
Now on to Lavinia's birthday tomorrow. Last year on Monday I went into labor with her at 7:30am as I was going down the steps to go to work. The contractions started fast and furious all 2 minutes apart from the get go. I having been induced with Dacian didn't really know what to expect and didn't know if this was real labor, if it would start and stop. I waited about an hour and when I saw that the contractions were not slowing down or stopping we headed to the hospital. I was a 5cm when I went it. Man was that painful. The baby would have been born at noon since I was at a 10 cm then but the baby didn't drop and I had to to see if my water would break on its own. It didn't. The midwife called the doctor and they broke the water. They were afaid the cord would strangle the baby if the water gushed too quickly and she was still so high up. I remember being so scared of the C-section they threatened me with. Thankfully after they broke the water the baby dropped right away and I was able to have her no problem. I am so thankful that I was at the hospital cared by good doctors. For some reason both of my births were not so normal so it was a blessing I was there.
Anyway, enough rambling. Pictures coming soon and a second post dedicated to my Lav, Lavi, Lavinia, my sweet little girl.

Last Year's Trick or Treating

I failed to post this last year but I really wanted to share. Too bad the sound is not the best. You might have to turn up your volume. This is Dacian last year, first year of real trick or treating. Enjoy!

Halloween fun

Halloween was fun or as fun as can be while trick or treating in the rain. Thankfully it didn't pour. Dacian had the best time of his life and Lavinia was a very cute ladybug who tagged along for the fun. Mom and I made her costume and I love how cute she looks in it. She is so tiny. Dacian also wore his jedi costume the day before for trunk and treat and we made that last year. The policeman costume came from Uncle Scott and Aunt Candice. (He was so happy to wear that)

For work the office ladies and our principal were pirates. It was fun to dress up.

Poor Shane was super sick and didn't get to join us at all. He was sad I didn't video tape the kids trick or treating but I simply forgot.

Kids say the funniest things

I kept debating whethere or not to post about this. I think it's too funny not to so here I go.
One day on TV there was a cartoon that showed a skeleton (I'm sure something to do with Halloween). Dacian asked me what that was.
I said: " A skelleton. It's made of bones. We all have bones in our bodies. Look: your knees, ankles, those are bones." I showed him that we have bones all throughout our bodies. He seemed surprised of this new finind but proceeded to go play with his toys.
The next day, just out of the blue after he went potty he comes to me patties off and says looking down at IT:
"Does my pipi have a bone in it?"
I just about died laughing. He was so cute, his little face with pure curiosity and wonderment. This was no joke to him. He must've been impressed by the concept of bones and the kid needed to know. He also of course didn't understand why I was laughing. I love this age. It 's fun to see what and how they process things.

First time in preschool

My sweet little boy, Dacian started preschool this week. What an exciting time for him this has been. He waited for a long time to start preschool, probably thinking I am lying to him because he kept asking everyday if this was going to be the day. I had to say not today, soon... next week, in just a few days, etc. I can only imagine how hard it would be to not be able to understand what it means, "a week, etc" and just have to wait and wonder if today was gonna be the day.
Monday he finally had his dream come true. He is such a social little boy and loves to make friends and play with toys and learn. The preschool I put him in is a program hosted at a highschool right close to our house and seniors get to participate and interact and supervise the kids. They are doing this as part of a class and after they finish being with the kids (supervised by a teacher) they go to class and discuss everything they are learning about the behavior of kids. I think it's probably child pshychology. They are there for only two and a half hours and only three days a week. The price is super cheap and they said their main goal is to get them ready for kindergarten, they will learn the basics, abc's, numbers, but also will practice their manners, listening skills and sharing. I am excited he will be around kids more. Being with my parents is great but he is mostly around them and that's that. Of course they go to parks all the time but it's just not the same. And Lavinia is still too little to be his play buddy.
Anyway, we had to drop him off right at the curb where a highschool kid comes and picks them up. They even take them out of the carseat for you and buckle them back in when you pick them up.
He didn't even look back or said good bye to me. I, like any other mom sending their first kid away from home for the first time, was pretty emotional. I mean, this felt like IT. Time flies and he will soon start kindergarten and so on and soon I will have big kids. I sure am not ready for that. I just love litte ones with all the challenges that brings, tantrums and all I adore their innocence and their cuteness. I fear for the day when that will be gone. I am pretty sure I am done having kids so I am clinging to my kids, I am drinking them all up. I try to enjoy and play with them and make sure I am memorizing their cuteness. I did notice that memorizing their every stage isn't going so well so I decided to be better and record more of their day to day life.
Anyway, I am ramling now but oh well, it's 11 at night and I can't sleep. It's nice to have a moment to myself once in a while even if that means being so tired tomorrow at work.
And now here are a few cute pictures.
Look how much bigger Dacian is. He sure love that little sister. She is a total midget, she weighs only 15 lbs at 10 months.

Bye mom and dad, preschool here I come.

On they way to preschool.